This and that

The world is so big, so vast. I am so small, i want many things in this life, and I think all my wants are big, so big they overwhelm me sometimes. But they are small, and mostly not necessary at all.

I gained new eyes, I gained new experiences as well. I had the chance to experience warmth, and beautiful people of a different culture.

I met beautiful women, helpful souls, good men. Walked the alleys of Old Delhi, had some seriously tasty and (warm!) food. I shivered in the cold and watch men wrapped themselves in shawls. Took a couple ( 3982374976324 selfies ). Surprised at the number of men who loves their pictures to be taken. Had the most flavorful vegetarian sandwich at this quaint cafe.

Solitary travelling can seem daunting, it was quickly comforted with alot of chai tea in this winter. Had so many doors opened for me, beautiful windows for me, to see the near and far. When I am so engrossed with my future in front of me, i take a moment to look above – always marveled at the site above., the carved ceilings, so many birds in skies of India, have you wondered why ? I took the train, and saw that the sun grows from the ground. Walked within the walls of Taj Mahal – a husbands’ act of love and commitment to his beloved wife.

I saw the sun say goodbye, and saw it say hello to the world. Also, when the sun spoke to the moon as well. And all the kids who flew their kites from the rooftop.

Was exhilarating and calm at the same time. I wondered if i could replicate this in my everyday life. Yes i can, but its normally filled with KPIs, I watched the sun set, but with many wired thoughts in my head, without peace in my heart. I dont even hear myself breathing at times. Breaks like this, helps me align on what i really need.




 

Well,Hello

He wears a navy blue sweater, with a burgundy red beanie. His classic grey pants, the fabric is shiny now becuase it’s aged. And his black leather shoes.

He has a round belly. His face is round and cute, his cheeks pink and healthy.

He is happy to see me. He hugs me tightly. He is happy to see me.

We met in a train station.

 

Where have you been dad. Where have you been. I have missed you, what seem like a thousand years.

What a wonderful year it has been

Thank you for mercy, thank you for grace, thank you for love, thank you for wisdom, thank you for peace, thank you for prosperity, thank you for understanding, thank you for listening.

Thank you for kindness, thank you for all the opportunities, thank you for all the blessings, thank you for all the hugs and kisses, thank you for all the warm and well wishes, thank you for the unending support, thank you for the hard times and the good times.

It has been an eventful year, I didn’t have any new year resolution for 2017 but to live and to invest in things that matters. The aim was always to remember to invest time and energy, to commit and be consistent in order to achieve the desired outputs.

  1. Quality thoughts = quality life.
  2. Easy conversation = hard life, Hard conversations = easy life.
  3. Commitment, consistency, hard work will always give you good output.
  4. All good things that you desire, good career, good quality friendships/relationships are outputs of continuous efforts of small choices that we make everyday.
  5. Timing in life is cyclical, you need to respect it. If it’s not your time, it’s not your time.
  6. On huge, unconditional and consuming love;

    “Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.”

Have a splendid new year!

 

Me to you

If there are things I would ask for, I would ask for peace of mind. Calmness in my heart and liver. Bigger heart to love deeply and consumingly. The capacity to help those around me. Kindness to accept, and allow people to love  me. Unending desire to learn and see new things.

If there are things I could ask for, I would ask to see daddy one more time. To hear him nag one last time. To right the wrongs. For healthy family and friends. To form  deeper and quality relationships, to practice patience (so important), to know it’s ok to just breathe on some days.

But tonight, I’m going to ask for him to get the things that he wants. May You bless him with his heart desires, he has shown me compassion, kindness and love and i hope that You could return the favour. If your path for him is to shine light in other places. So be it, nothing good ever stems out of selfishness. I’m scared. But I’m confident it will be ok.

They looked like clowns, jumping around, trying to show their latest act. Paraded before me like a slow motion clip.

I refuse to flinch, or react.

Simply becuase, no one is dying. The scale of this, is that no one is dying.

Phasing

Life is messy, and living it to the full can be very untidy, all over the place. Emotions, possessions, bodily functions, it’s all one big colourful mess. There is so much going on in contemporary life and we have so many options and ideas readily available to us that it’s so easy to be overwhelmed.

Accept the untidy mess, welcome what you can do with it. The act of acceptance can help you create the space on enjoying life.

Can help me at least.