“We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.”

 

Tonight.

I’m lying on my bed, typing away from my laptop, because I’m working from home. Mid Jan.

  1. I have brought work home twice this month because i cant keep up with my bosses’ and business’s demands. I literally feel like im just drowning. And most of the time I’m just winging it because. It’s a new job, and a new country. So many things to know, to learn.
  2. I have started to drink coffee again. This as a result has made a few knots in my stomach – highly uncomfortable and unhealthy.
  3. I have started to run more though, and rowing. My upper back breaks, but for good.
  4. I have made myself leave the office at 7pm max. ( Please refer point 1 ).
  5. I love my niece more and more. She’s a handful but shes lovely and a kid. When she hugs me and says ‘night night’. so.much.love.
  6. Feels like im failing. Feels like it. Like i cant keep the promises I made to myself.

 

 

 

When the night skies are filled with stars, and the water is calm.

Pack up
I’m straight
Enough
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say

Wait, they don’t love you like i love you
Wait, they don’t love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-a-ps, wait!
They don’t love you like i love you…

Made off
Don’t stray
My kind’s your kind
I’ll stay the same

Pack up
Don’t stray
Oh, say say say
Oh, say say say

Wait! they don’t love you like i love you
Wait! they don’t love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-aps, wait!
They don’t love you like i love you…
Wait! they don’t love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-aps, wait!
They don’t love you like i love you…

Wait, they don’t love you like i love you
Wait, they don’t love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-a-ps, wait!
They don’t love you like i love you…
Wait, they don’t love you like i love you
Ma-a-a-a-ps, wait!
They don’t love you like i love you…

#butHelovedyoumore

This year.

For all good things require time to build, for all good things require patience and deep rooted understanding of human behaviours and surroundings, and through a lot of figuring out and failures. For all the things I do not understand or have the slightest idea of the bigger picture.

There is no instant gratification, there can be – but you lose them instantly as well.

So it is with my career, all my relationships, and all the things that bring true and deep meaning in my life, takes time and effort.

 

This year, I will take time to build things that lasts.

 

 

Can’t remember how 2016 started off. If I remembered accurately it didn’t start of as well as i wanted it to, however things improved.

Christmas was warm and lovely, as I prepare for 2017.. in the midst of preparing. I finally get to sit down alone and ponder and reflect on the things that has evolved, and some of the things that remained.

Daily stress is always there, in everyones life, however there are collective stress of the world, life and it can sometimes be hard to find optimism. Seems like a little self-indulgent here as I know that I have a nice life (comfortable) and I know it. There has been epic goodness, a lot of warmth and love, a lot of hugs and kisses, many unforgettable experiences, painful heartbreaks and lessons on friendships and my career growth. Lost one two many dear friends, gained a few more.

So much more to be grateful for. I can’t ask for anything more, everything I want/need has been presented to me, in one way or another. Healthy family, sincere good friends, a roof over my head, a wandering eye for travel and an eager heart.

Literally can’t wait for 2017, with each passing year, it only gets better.

 

 

Deep breaths

I’m lying on the moon
My dear, I’ll be there soon
It’s a quiet and starry place
Time’s we’re swallowed up
In space we’re here a million miles away

There’s things I wish I knew
There’s no thing I’d keep from you
It’s a dark and shiny place
But with you my dear
I’m safe and we’re a million miles away

We’re lying on the moon
It’s a perfect afternoon
Your shadow follows me all day
Making sure that I’m
Okay and we’re a million miles away

A memory.

me and you.caramel popcorn and coke in our hands.Movie theatre. Laughters and love.Followed by supper.

 

Miss you daddy. Can you see that. Can you see me. I love you, I have miss you for what feels like a thousand years.