i have been anxious and jumpy, trying to control many things I can not control in life. Being ridiculous and absurd.
i want the best for him, ( although I want to be selfish, I want the best for him and I want him to be happy). I hate that I have such capacity with love, I hate to be able to be so open, and deep and vast about things and people I love in life, but I pray for your will to be done, to shine light unto him, his life and the path you have for him.
I write this with tears in my eyes, I trust that you love me with more than your heart, and you provide for me, my daily needs (wants- debate-able). Thank you for always taking care of me, for always giving me and allowing me to grow in the ways I want/ need to.
You teach me how to live life and how to be more like you, I have so much more to learn, whether it’s through pain or joy.
As a problem solver, I struggle greatly with living in the present, and letting nature unfold itself. And I know that life is all about risking it, because there’s really no guarantee in life, in anything actually.
I pray that he gets what he wants and needs, to be happy in his life, and to truly find his calling in life, where ever he may be located. And in any moment I need to let go, may you help me be the gracious, courageous, open and loving woman I can be. I can’t thank you enough for putting this wonderful man in my life. He is a man who has principles, held closely by integrity, such passion to constantly grow, if not, faster than anyone else I know, incredibly generous with money, love and his hugs and kisses. And I can go on and on with the list.
He deserves nothing but the best, and I’m sure You won’t sell him short. I trust You.
Thank you for listening to me.