Between Good Friday and Easter Sunday, is a day of mourning – the death of Jesus Christ.
And when He died, everyone that loved Him was met by grief. Little that anyone knew that a Sunday would come, that happiness would come around the next day, a day to celebrate and to give thanks for.
Out of death rose life.
There will always be Saturdays in your life – be it the Saturday last for 24 hours, a month, a year, 10 years, but Easter will come. Alongside that, you can always find (momentarily) happiness in waiting and mourning. Breathe in each day that you’re in.
And when Easter comes, you celebrate in awe. All things are given in His timing.
when you found someone who understands your craziness and is the same crazy as you.
Ill try not to fuck this one up.
Things are getting a little out of hand. Actually I’m getting a little out of hand. Seem to have zero control over the things around me, and whats worst – I seem to be losing grip of myself. I might have been a little harsh on myself lately – this expectation that i need to meet solely made up by me. haha. silly me. Its Friday and i finally got my keys to my apartment. I’m starting to find my ground in this new place. It has not been a long time, but i can see now who are the people i can work with, together and who are ready to fight battles, side-by-side. Which is great- this segregation of people helps me know who are worth it and who are not. I was feeling a little upset with myself because I was so preoccupied with adjusting I forgot how to feel. How to truly be present. It was daddy’s birthday but i couldnt find time to think and reflect about him, because I was too busy feeling tired.
Rest girl, rest. You need it.
this route. it is mine. i find much difficulty in accepting it. it is not what i want. and i also not we don’t get to choose sometimes.
are you there.
I’m lying on my bed, typing away from my laptop, because I’m working from home. Mid Jan.
- I have brought work home twice this month because i cant keep up with my bosses’ and business’s demands. I literally feel like im just drowning. And most of the time I’m just winging it because. It’s a new job, and a new country. So many things to know, to learn.
- I have started to drink coffee again. This as a result has made a few knots in my stomach – highly uncomfortable and unhealthy.
- I have started to run more though, and rowing. My upper back breaks, but for good.
- I have made myself leave the office at 7pm max. ( Please refer point 1 ).
- I love my niece more and more. She’s a handful but shes lovely and a kid. When she hugs me and says ‘night night’. so.much.love.
- Feels like im failing. Feels like it. Like i cant keep the promises I made to myself.
For all good things require time to build, for all good things require patience and deep rooted understanding of human behaviours and surroundings, and through a lot of figuring out and failures. For all the things I do not understand or have the slightest idea of the bigger picture.
There is no instant gratification, there can be – but you lose them instantly as well.
So it is with my career, all my relationships, and all the things that bring true and deep meaning in my life, takes time and effort.
This year, I will take time to build things that lasts.
Can’t remember how 2016 started off. If I remembered accurately it didn’t start of as well as i wanted it to, however things improved.
Christmas was warm and lovely, as I prepare for 2017.. in the midst of preparing. I finally get to sit down alone and ponder and reflect on the things that has evolved, and some of the things that remained.
Daily stress is always there, in everyones life, however there are collective stress of the world, life and it can sometimes be hard to find optimism. Seems like a little self-indulgent here as I know that I have a nice life (comfortable) and I know it. There has been epic goodness, a lot of warmth and love, a lot of hugs and kisses, many unforgettable experiences, painful heartbreaks and lessons on friendships and my career growth. Lost one two many dear friends, gained a few more.
So much more to be grateful for. I can’t ask for anything more, everything I want/need has been presented to me, in one way or another. Healthy family, sincere good friends, a roof over my head, a wandering eye for travel and an eager heart.
Literally can’t wait for 2017, with each passing year, it only gets better.